A lot of people ask; how do you do it?
Most of the time, I don't know how to respond. If each person that has asked me that question sat at home alone with their thoughts, they would probably do the same things I have. You do it because you have too.
I sat and had a good talk with my best friend tonight. She asked me the same thing. I responded by asking her the same question. She is a strong woman and amazing mother that has two children, one of which is my three month old godson, and she still manages to work backshift four nights a week. Sometimes in life you have to throw on your big girl panties with a smile and do what you have to.
I am far from perfect. I have my break downs, some weeks more then others. I am a bereaved mother. I am grieving. I am hurting, but I live on. No one knows the heartache behind each of my smiles, or how many times I have broken down and cried. Connor is so wonderful to think about, but so hard to be without.
Everyone has a reason to wake up in the morning. For my best friend its her two beautiful children. For anyone else it could be the person your waking up to every morning or the person down the street. In my case its for my son and his Father. It's for my family. It doesn't matter how you do it, all the matters is why you do it.
I have learned that in the middle of difficulty lies opportunity. This is my opportunity to grow into the mother Connor deserves. Someone strong, loving and confident.
After all, I am only human.
Most of the time, I don't know how to respond. If each person that has asked me that question sat at home alone with their thoughts, they would probably do the same things I have. You do it because you have too.
I sat and had a good talk with my best friend tonight. She asked me the same thing. I responded by asking her the same question. She is a strong woman and amazing mother that has two children, one of which is my three month old godson, and she still manages to work backshift four nights a week. Sometimes in life you have to throw on your big girl panties with a smile and do what you have to.
I am far from perfect. I have my break downs, some weeks more then others. I am a bereaved mother. I am grieving. I am hurting, but I live on. No one knows the heartache behind each of my smiles, or how many times I have broken down and cried. Connor is so wonderful to think about, but so hard to be without.
Everyone has a reason to wake up in the morning. For my best friend its her two beautiful children. For anyone else it could be the person your waking up to every morning or the person down the street. In my case its for my son and his Father. It's for my family. It doesn't matter how you do it, all the matters is why you do it.
I have learned that in the middle of difficulty lies opportunity. This is my opportunity to grow into the mother Connor deserves. Someone strong, loving and confident.
After all, I am only human.
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