FINALLY!
Connors foot stone is finally here!
It is such a bittersweet feeling to see our sweet baby boys name written in stone on the ground. It is so official that he will never be coming back to us, he's really gone forever. This will always mark a special place and time in our lives.
It breaks my heart to know that he will never get to celebrate his first birthday, his first Christmas and when the time comes the first day that he should have been starting school. He will never get to become a teenager, get his license or graduate. So many people take things in life for granted, like spending Christmas with loved ones or celebrating someones birthday. When the time comes, Connor will have his first Christmas in his own unique way. His first birthday will be one celebrated by many and with lots of love.
So many people ask me how I am doing.
Most people ask with the head tilt or the sad eyes. I, in return answer with my biggest smile and tell them, "Really, I'm fine". Most of the time, this is true. I don't think there will ever be a time in my life when I don't have bad days thinking about what has happened. How could I not, I'm twenty-one years old and have already lost a child. Mark and I have been through something that most parents only fear. We have lived through our worst fear and we have survived, we are surviving. We are lucky. We got to hold our baby, we got to celebrate his life and we always will. We had such plans for our Son, but he decided to give us the biggest test of our lives. I just hope that he is looking down on us and is as proud of us as we are of him.
Connor made our house a home, he made us parents.
Connors foot stone is finally here!
It is such a bittersweet feeling to see our sweet baby boys name written in stone on the ground. It is so official that he will never be coming back to us, he's really gone forever. This will always mark a special place and time in our lives.
It breaks my heart to know that he will never get to celebrate his first birthday, his first Christmas and when the time comes the first day that he should have been starting school. He will never get to become a teenager, get his license or graduate. So many people take things in life for granted, like spending Christmas with loved ones or celebrating someones birthday. When the time comes, Connor will have his first Christmas in his own unique way. His first birthday will be one celebrated by many and with lots of love.
So many people ask me how I am doing.
Most people ask with the head tilt or the sad eyes. I, in return answer with my biggest smile and tell them, "Really, I'm fine". Most of the time, this is true. I don't think there will ever be a time in my life when I don't have bad days thinking about what has happened. How could I not, I'm twenty-one years old and have already lost a child. Mark and I have been through something that most parents only fear. We have lived through our worst fear and we have survived, we are surviving. We are lucky. We got to hold our baby, we got to celebrate his life and we always will. We had such plans for our Son, but he decided to give us the biggest test of our lives. I just hope that he is looking down on us and is as proud of us as we are of him.
Connor made our house a home, he made us parents.
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